Brown Penny

February February 25, 2011

कर्म करते जाओ फल की चिन्ता ना करो |

For we Indians, Hindi has always been the perfect medium of expressing emotions, from being angry to being sad to being happy, it just can’t get better, (Just the same words, and there you go! Only the expression differs.) to the world famous Hindi abuses! (Well, that’s definitely one thing where it just can’t get worse.)

So, what can be better than this famous Bhagwad Geeta principle! (Have been hearing this, since my childhood, from my grandma! And now finally, I got the real meaning of it.)

And also, all I can think is that I’m just so happy! Happy to be with you! (Can’t stop smiling! It was just the best!)

A New Leap! A New Level! A New Stage!

Summing up, February was full of new experiences, emotions, surprises (happiness) and finally, growing up!! (Many days to remember, for which words seem less!)

I’m loving it!

Clap and Snap February 19, 2011

If you’re happy and you know it clap your hands! *Clap!* *Clap!* If you’re happy and you know it and you really wanna show it, if you’re happy and you know it snap your fingers! *Snap!* *Snap!* (I know I sing this song quite often, but this is the best that describes I’m happy. So, if you find me humming this song, then surely, I am happy!)

Thank you!!! Thank you God!

Well, as it is, All’s well that ends well. And so it was with me today. (Atleast I hope so, now.)

Meanwhile, I think I have this strange thing that attracts all the small toddlers towards me. It has been quite a while that I’ve been noticing this, and this is all the conclusion that I could make. (And I think I have a lot of “Baby” friends now!)

So, happy and reeling, I just want to dug into my portion of Caramel Custard! (*Yummy!*)

Jolly good fellas February 16, 2011

What is it, when you write the whole thing and erase it all, and start writing all over again. I’m doing it for the third time now.

Maybe, I have it in my mind that I’ve promised you not to think! So, I can’t (or couldn’t) even say what I want to, because you don’t want me to.

But, one assurance I surely have, you’ve always filled in my silences. (Because you’re the only one who has been able to read my silence.) I remember my friend saying just yesterday, how is it that, that one person can understand without even you saying anything, (kinda telepathy, eh?!) that’s exactly what I felt.

I don’t want you to vanish away, (once again!) because that was the hardest I’ve ever been through, so I’m keeping my promise of being happy, (and full of life!) but with my condition of you being always there. (Your presence.)

Because Jolly good fellas, are what we are, and will always remain. (For the completely happy times that you always say.)

P.S: In the hope that you read it, and clear the skies in your mind, so that you too can be happy (and thinking-free.)

Getting high February 14, 2011

All that is moving inside my mind right now is the line, When I met you, I met my world. Saw my world in you, in your smile (that always makes me smile.)

From being little immature kids, (remember the ‘Weeee!’?) and oh! man! the Round About, and not to forget the others, (‘Weeee!’) and ofcourse the Maze, to being mature grown ups, did it all! Experienced many new things, (and yet to keep on experiencing more) the rain, (pouring right now!) surely proved to be an icing to the Perfect Day!

(Well, I know my words seems as if scared of each other and jumbled, but the title is to blame and it gives all justification.) So, I can just help myself now by dozing off! (In the hope that this Perfect Day will never end.)

P.S: Red doesn’t irritate me, infact I love red!

Valentine’s Day? Bleh. February 12, 2011

Time to take a decision.

Two people, whom I really knew (or atleast I thought I did) changed to the opposite. Or maybe I just misjudged them earlier, and they were just the way they are. Can’t explain any reasons to myself and as I’ve also been advised not to think, so I’m just letting whatever has to happen, happen.

Putting my foot down.

Meanwhile, maybe Valentine’s Day is just too much hyped, or maybe I feel so because of my two (or maybe three now) consequtive times’ experience. If it really means love, then maybe someday (maybe even this Monday!) I’ll be happy on this day too. (If not, then it really wasn’t.)

As of now, Red? It irritates me!

Miracle – At It’s Best! February 10, 2011

“Haha”, that’s all I am about! Smiling, laughing for no reason, in short just being crazy for no reason at all, irritating people and yet loving them!

I had taken off to find myself, and I did find a sense of maturity and thinking sensibily, (to an extent.) realised how insanely I had been behaving ( which surely ain’t gonna come back ever now.) but one thing that concluded inside me was that we gain everything from experience (which I am gaining.) and I surely don’t wanna force – start anything, as everything comes with time and whatever it maybe, I love my life!

So, I’m back with a bang! (but too tired too *bang* right now!) 8 o’ clock, you’re really hectic and tiring.

But the real reason for bringing back ME, life surprises you in its own unique ways, ( I got mine, and the best one.) and that was all I could ever ask for. (completely inexpressible!)

As, everybody is on with the Promise Day today, I too have promised you something and I’ll always keep it!

Farewell? February 7, 2011

Just heard a line from a very close one, “I’m sorry I have friends!”

This line pinched me! (You know how it is, hitting rock bottom again and again and then again?!) But, to you, don’t pity me please.

What’s this life for? (I know this used to be your favourite question!) My life? I sure have to find the answer to that!

Have had this long feeling of running away, to a place completely unknown, (basically the faces!) and try finding myself, maybe it’s time for that. If I return, I may have found a better me, with better understanding, for a better US! It’s important. I can’t be thinking of my life such, I can’t be pitying my life, I can’t be crazy anymore (Though I know, being crazy is something I own. I can’t change that!) I need to go, in the hope to return with a better me.

In the meanwhile, I just can’t get enough of this line inside my head, Chori upar se seena jori!

Just learn to prioritize!

*Ciao.*

Shocked February 6, 2011

Earlier it was like there’s rock bottom, then 50 feet of crap, and then me.

And now, I hit rock bottom!!! (Shocked till depth.)

Bitches and biatches.

Care or No Care? February 6, 2011

Sometimes it happens, we just can’t gather words but there’s this strong urge to shout out everything or in my case, to write out everything!

Going through these mixed emotions, extreme anger, broken, lonely, helpless, confused, and then keeping it all by yourself, is a real pain.

I really would finally type out this one thing, which I had framed inside my head since morning, Enjoy life to the fullest, have fun, but with caution because when I do so the same (as you), you’re gonna have a hard time digesting it!

To whomever it may concern, I’m extremely angry!